- Foreign exchange: I know what you’re thinking, you didn’t even do a year of exchange, you stayed here in crappy Ohio. But you see I became close with two amazing people from the other side of the world this school year, and that changed my life. Jil, who was from Germany was in my squad in marching band, and also sat in front of me in chem and became one of my good friends. When she left in January it was really hard for me to say goodbye to her. We still text here and there but it’s just awesome knowing I have a good friend on the other side of the world. Cate, who is from Italy is in band with me as well and has become very close with all the people in my friend group. When she leaves in June it will be very hard saying goodbye to her as well.
- Band: I could go on for a really long time on why band has changed my life, but I’ll just keep it short this time. This year in band I met who I think my lifelong best friends are going to be, and I could not be more thankful for them.
- Powerlifting: I have fallen in love with this sport. My friend Courtney nagged and nagged me to join the team for two years and I finally gave in and it’s probably one of the best decisions I have ever made in the 17 years I have been alive. Not only did I make friends, But I have gained so much confidence from it. I am so grateful for powerlifting and that god gave me the ability to lift such heavy things on my own. I broke a school record at the first meet and by the end of the season had continued to raise the weight on that record which is now set at 275 pounds. Even though I got injured and was out for three weeks, I still lifted and placed at state and I was so proud of myself. Powerlifting has helped my anxiety and depression so much, and also helped me lose weight helping me learn how to love my body a little. and I will forever be thankful for that.
- CBFM/ACT: This year reality hit me that I now was in charge of my life. That from here on out I had to make the decisions on what path to take in my life. Two things made this realization very real. CBFM made me realize that after I graduate high school not everything is as big of a reality as I thought it was, that I won’t be able to do everything if I don’t plan it well. ACTs made me realize how messed up our educational system is and how one wrong answer can mess up your entire future.
- Chemistry: Chemistry made me realize that my hopes of going into pre-med and becoming a Doctor probably won’t become a reality and how many things can stop you from accomplishing your dreams, especially if you don’t try hard enough. It also made me realize how bad I am at testing and how unfair school really is. How teachers want you to memorize all of these things for each class and how hard it is to remember it all and test over all of it. And how much stuff you do and don’t get credit for.
- Mardi Gras: Going to New Orleans in February with my school’s marching band definitely had a big impact on my life. It made me realize how much I love traveling. How throwing yourself into a new place, with a different culture, and trying new foods makes you slowly find who you are. It makes you feel alive. I also proved to myself that I could do so many things on my own. Plus I marched nearly 13 miles without giving up. It was an amazing experience that not everyone gets to go through.
- Not going to any school dances: Not going to any school dances this year made me realize how overrated school dances in high school actually are. You go spend hundreds on a dress you only wear once. Get your hair done in a head aching updo. Wear uncomfortable shoes for a couple of pictures, a dinner that cost $20 and 3 hours of dancing in a hot room full of 300 kids you see every day. I on the other hand went and spent $10 on food and a milkshake, went shopping and had a movie night with some of my best friends and it was more fun than any lame school dance. Just saying.
- Losing weight: From the beginning of the school year to now I have lost nearly 60 pounds and have dropped 4 or 5 pant sizes.( thanks to T and marching band and powerlifting for kicking me in the butt to get me going, it is much appreciated!!) I still have long ways to go till I feel completely comfortable in my body but I already feel so much better.
- Losing friends// getting my heart broken into millions of pieces: This school year I realized what people were actually on my side (I’m still not completely sure who I can trust but I figured a couple people out) and slowly but surely they left my life. Yes, it is hard letting go of someone who you thought was your friend when you are the type of person who doesn’t like to give up on people. But sometimes it’s better for yourself to do it even if it’s hard. I’ve also had my heart completely ripped from my body and I’m trying to regain myself and put myself back together. It’s hard but I’m strong and I’ll make it without the people I had to get rid of.
- Migraines and doctors: I have been going through a literal living hell for about 3ish months now. 16 doctors appointments, 2 ER visits, 14 different medicines, 8 IVs, 6 Injections, 2 CT scans, 1 MRI, and a spinal tap later and no one has been able to figure out why I have such a bad migraine that will not go away. It is affecting my grades, social life, mental health, and mood on a daily basis since late February and I just need it to go away.
- Class of 2017 leaving: This is the first class that I have sat and actually cried about them graduating and I think that is because they have always been there and that I’m really close with most of the (band) kids in that grade. It made me realize I have to get my crap together because I’m next.
- Nature// Photography//blogging: Over the last couple of months I have found a big interest in hiking and taking cool pictures of nature and abandoned buildings. To me other than music it’s my favorite way to express myself. Blogging has also help me express myself, I just write whatever I’m feeling and it’s great.